I am almost there, it’s coming, bloody hell it’s coming around quick – too quickly I’m starting to think. I feel nervous about it, worried even, but very excited. I have plans, ideas and dreams – I just hope they become a reality.
I’m talking about my future and starting my bucket list. I have heard and read people ridicule this phrase, but anything that inspires people to dream and experience is nothing but a positive in my book.
I am determined to achieve all the things that my list contains, some of my ideas are very simplistic and some are pinch yourself moments. Sometimes, as my time draws nearer, I start to worry about it and get nervous that I wont accomplish all the things I want to. As with the beginning of my adult life, my 30’s has become a time of sacrifice too. A straight choice between having more children and ticking of my bucket list – I haven’t the time for both. I owe it to this huge sacrifice to live the rest of my life by the seat of my pants.
So, what does this list of mine contain, far to many things to mention but here are the highlights. Lets start with the pinch yourself moments.
Discovering/county singer – This is my image, walking into a smoky bar where the sole occupants are the bar man, a man and his dog. The man has been drinking the same whiskey for a couple of hours. It’s a basement bar, no windows and you can hardly see through the fog of smoke. On the stage is a man and his guitar, he has the most incredible voice you have ever heard. He doesn’t look up, not once as he pours his feelings into his music and it breaks your heart.
Visiting a gospel church in America – I have this image of small white church on a hot Sunday morning packed to the rafters with families, friends and us. The choir are singing their hearts out and the music is so beautiful it makes you feel all kinds of emotions. It’s so loud I can feel the music in my chest and I am covered in goosebumps. Oh happy day we really finish this dream off – there might even be tears.
Watching kids play football on the Copacabana beach in Brazil – It’s hot, so hot, I’ve never felt temperatures like it. We are strolling down the beach, Christ the Redeemer is standing tall far above. We can hear them before we see them.Excited laughter, shouting and a few words I don’t understand. We sit on the beach to watch the next footballing superstars in action. Bare-footed, passionate and skilful, they would give most professionals a run for their money.
Now the simplistic but still important things of my list –
Not cooking dinner – I can eat egg on toast for dinner if I want to. No pressure to prepare a well-balanced meal if I really can’t be bothered.
Staying in bed all day – It Sunday morning and its raining. I can stay in bed the whole day, I don’t need to set a good example or entertain anyone. Pizza and box sets it is then.
Spending all my spare cash in one day – Gig tickets, holiday or festivals. I can live on toast for month.
So, there is a snapshot of my bucket list. I am looking forward to writing about my experiences and sharing them with you.
I would love to hear about yours……..